So I've decided that I'm going to become a wine taster. Anyone know how I can do that? Do you need some kind of degree for this? Can someone pay me to spend all day drinking nice fruity red spanish wine? Please? Just kidding. I wish I had the credentials for that, but you do indeed need to be a specialist. If I could travel back in time, I would have taken my fathers advice. I can remember the day clearly, I was about 17 and didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, I was flunking basically every class, and I wanted to be an artist and when my parents asked "Hey, Vanessa, what do you plan to study?", I said " I want to make movies". Dad looked at me an said "How?". But I was convinced, since I had recently gone to a film school seminar and had been a movie fanatic since i first saw Alien (at the age of 2). I replied "Dad, I want to be an artist in animated features". May father wanted me to be oenologist, but, my parents were, and have always been, the most understanding people I have every met. I wanted to study film, so I did. 3 years later, I could be an animator for Disney. But by that time, I was bored with animation. Too much mork. You need to have patience to animate. By that time, my whole idea had escalated to: I want to be a storyboard artist. They don't have to animate every frame, and they have more input and creative power. And I was no longer interested in animation. I wanted to work horror movies, live action.

It would be so much easier if I were a wine maker. Had I never loved the arts, I could probably make an honest living. Or maybe if my parents had been more honest with me, I wouldnt thrive on this stupid dream. But I won't blame them . It's all on me.

I had other things that I wanted to say, but I'm just gonna skip it. Nobody cares and it doesn't matter. I just wish I had chosen something else. I wish I had never fallen in love with Gilliam or Jarmusch or Scorcese. I wish I never had the need to paint or write stories or any of it. I wish I had been normal.